Growing up and still growing
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Sometimes, I feel that I am very childish.
What others do upon me, I will do it back upon them.
People showed me attitude, I will show a face.
Yes, my heart is hurt.
Being mistreated by colleague who I used to joke with just because I can always finished my work on time and she? Busy work and taking her time to work and until someone shared about she being jealous of me and always backstabbed me, I start to feel a sense of dislike and hatred for her.
I kept it inside of me but recently, after I finished my work and rushed for CG, someone called me over the weekend and told me the things she said behind my back and the next day, came back to work to find that she showed attitude toward me.
Am I hurt? Yes.
I remembered asking her whether she is okay with her work before I needed to leave and this will surprised many, she knew every friday I won't be able to work extra hours and recently, I am assigned to handle foreign trades while she is still doing local trades. I taking my time with my work, while she needed to handle hers. I can handle mine pretty well even with extreme high volume, why can't she?
And it voice down to politic. People told me the cruelty of politics, I saw it, experienced it when I was in other working environment but this one... Being backstabbed many time without realizing it and every time I wonder, why this happened and slowly the mysteries opened up.
The root cause is just beside me. You might think I am trying to blame it on hers but I witnessed others who suffered. One even want to quit...
You might be thinking, what does it got to do with my topic... Growing up and still growing...
Well, today I made a decision to move on from here. Even if it happened again, I will brush it aside for now. And keep praying for God's strength. I can't do this alone, I need a bigger capacity with Jesus and may Jesus be the strength of my heart!
Let me grow up and keep growing...Labels: Thoughts
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