Answer
I has finally received my answer in the form of encouragement.
Unexpected but nonetheless, it stirred up hell to fight against this vision.
A call from on high and I am just walking toward it.
Why shall I fear when God told me to trust in Him?
Trusting...
Easy said then done but I know, with God all things are possible.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Amen!Labels: Confirmation
Remembering the LORD @ 12:45 AM
Needing Healing
I need healing for the inner scars that I buried deep within me.
Has been wondering where this aching feeling come from...
Maybe because I never fully faced it.
是时候要面对了。。。
I don't want to keep on going back and buried these hurts.
I sometimes feel that the melandony side of me is overtaking the true inner me.
People always thought or try to figure me but the irritation within me is unbearable.
I just want to be understand by people.
Maybe some have starting to understand me but some have not or they think they know enough...
但是这个伤痛还在.
Sometimes, I really think, it is because I haven't go deeper yet. Maybe it is time to really seek the face of God once more time.
To find my true Healer.Labels: Healing
Remembering the LORD @ 10:59 PM
Accountability, the Importance of It
How to walk in the blessing of God?
By being accountable...
A precious lesson I have learnt yet once again today.
Facing a issue over what is the will of God and another opportunity for job.
Thinking of giving it a try but the disturbance within me, forced me to reject it inwardly.
Been trying to use my ministry training as excuses to runaway but the person is too persistance until I reached a point of immediate shut up and fear that I am being too quick to judge, I called up Cindy just for a no or yes answer.
I received just what I need and happiness filled my heart.
Peace came once again but doubt also tried to set in.
Yet since no peace and agreement between Cindy and I, I decided to postpone it and since I told my friend about it, I decided to hold it for her sake.
Now, what should I do?
I don't know but I glad I share and ask for advice from my leader.
Just a confirmation of what is in my heart.
=D Thank God for training me into someone of patient.
Patient is a virtue I learning to receive and is one I refused to give up.
=DLabels: Accountability
Remembering the LORD @ 11:29 PM
2 more days!
Count down to 22/4/09!
On that day, I will have an interview at David's workplace at 3pm, interview for volunteers at CHCSA at Suntec Office at 5pm, and at 6.30pm, I will meet up with Garfield and Joseph for my long-awaited belated birthday treats! And where will it be?
At FISH MANHANTTEN and SWESEN!
I only craved for Chocolate Fongue but man, I also would like to have a proper meal.
Plus they at first wanna treat me at some Japanese Buffet place that suppose to cost 27 bucks each, so already very "kind" or should I said, evil for being such an unhealthy girl on wed.
With fried stuffs and chocolate!
And Garfield got no complaint!
Being a health freak, I thought he won't suggest such a "sinful" place.
With fried food and lots of it to boast.
Hahaha...
Man, I so hungry now! =X
And I shall "repent" for forgetting Garfield's birthday and forget to wish him happy birthday on his actual birthday! =XXXLabels: Birthday
Remembering the LORD @ 9:10 PM
Randomness
These few days, I am faced by questions from friends regarding my future unseen partner?
"In Mike's Car"
Martin: "When you getting married ar? Heard that "XX" will be getting married next year lei."
Me: "=.= 八字还没有一瞥嘞."
Martin: "Can one la."
Me: "Pray for me lo."
Martin: "Can! Pray for me too. Must be specific. XXXXXXXXXXX"
Now I ended up with a list of prayer request. Muhahahaha
But nonetheless, I felt on one area, I wasn't ready, got things to settle and also on one area, I on a vow and anyone trying to be funny with me will be kicked out like what I usually do but this time, I won't be as scared as last time and as timid as last time.
I am in no hurry for one and God is not One to be hurry, so who can be?
Not even my parents are hurry lei...
Time is the factor and all is well in the Lord. Hahahaha
Side note: My handphone bill is over for the first time for the past 1 year. Man, a hint, don't use it too much. 300 minutes of the outgoing call proved to be not enough. =X And I supposed to have 400 minutes!
Remembering the LORD @ 8:55 PM
Don't deserve these...
I don't deserve the pain inflicted by the past, and the bad habits that caused me sadness.
I don't deserve the torments from the one below, not even in my dreams.
I don't deserve all these nasty things...
And most of all, I don't deserve God and the blessings He gave and continue to give, but because of His love for me, He died on the cross for me 2000 years ago so that I can have a new life in Him.
Because of Him, I seriously don't deserve those emotional tortures by the devil.
I need to overcome it by the power of the Holy Spirit.
I need to be one that God make me to be...
Remembering the LORD @ 8:48 PM
Moving on...
Have you ever wonder what should you do to prevent a fall in your life?
I wonder about it...
I am thinking about it...
Yesterday I had a fall in auditorium, for the first time, I wore a high heels and had a fall.
Nearly rolled down the staircase but just in time, Leslie appeared and managed to help me balanced myself, but... I injured my ankle a little and there were scratches when I checked my legs when I reached home.
As painful as it is, I tolerated it all the way from service till home.
It wasn't that bad after all when I forced myself to jump and run [for today BBQ event] but nonetheless, I hated the scars.
Reminded of the time I had a fall outside of my NYP school gate.
But nonetheless, God reminded me...
Even when you have a fall in your life, I will stretch out my hands and pick you up and you must never look back but continue moving forward.
Leslie reminded me of God's hands that picked me up.
For a moment, millions of thought filled my mind...
God, I really want to give all to You, my scars, my pains, my everythings, those happy moments, sad moments, all in all, they belonged to You.
Gone are those days when I infaturated over someone and gone are those days when I tried to prove myself.
I has nothing without God and what can I achieve without Him?
Nothings...
Moving on, I looking forward to the days when I will reach the dreams of my heart.Labels: Moving On
Remembering the LORD @ 12:33 AM
Blessing to come...
So many things happened yesterday.
Went to SOT after a series of tight days of vistations before that.
Man, many things to plan and after a long weekend last week, I was sick with sore throat and even during service when Pastor Kong said that by "His stripes we are healed." I received by faith yet the healing is not immediate and I know and I know that I got to keep practising my faith.
Been praying, been asking.
Sore throat was getting worst and I was suffering in pain in term of dry throat and serious cough.
I always has this kind of problems during my schooling days and man, when I was sick, I really fall sick with giddiness and sometimes the sore throat can last for 2 weeks and the cough can last for months ranging from 3-6 months and I really prayed as I really dersire to do more and my throat is important for me.
During SOT, when Pastor Ming was left with 15 minutes to end the class, he asked us to come to a place of worship, without really singing a worship song, but with a keyboardlist and a worship leader and nothing else and man, I was kneeing and worshipping and I wanted to get my head lifted up as I was cradling myself but as I lifted up, Pastor Ming moved in the Spirit and before I knew it, I was hit by the presence of God and laid on the floor.
Faith arised within me for healing and man, my vision appeared before me and I sensed Jesus is there with me, encouraging me and comforting me. And as I got up after Pastor Ming ended the class, I realised my sore throat is totally gone! No more pain, no more cough.
And went to watch Fast and Furious with Val's team and man, it was a good show. Too bad, I left 5 minutes before the movie ended. =X Mandy told me the ending and I felt like =.=.
And after CG and a long fellowship, I finally went home and the first thing I knew was my hamster who was a killer of my another hamster, passed away after being with my family for 1 year and 9 months, not considered the fact that he was 2 months old when I got him from Jun Jie's ex-gf.
Bad things, good things.
But most of all, I went and found Ariel and she told me that I don't need to care about any of the exam as I am already in the ministry!
Yes, for those for have been praying for me, I got into Translation Ministry!
I got to continue to pray, study and work in Chinese so that I won't lag behind.
And not to forget, Joseph and Jason are going to treat me, my super belated birthday treat!
At Fish Manhantten and also Swensen!
My long-awaited chocolate fondue craving can now been fulfilled on next wed!
More blessings to come!Labels: Blessing
Remembering the LORD @ 9:44 AM
梦想里程
如果梦想可成真，你会追着它跑吗？
我曾经以为，要实现梦想并不容易。
在这段里程，我可能会难过，会伤心，但是我依然相信，神所预备的没人能挪去。
在这里程里，我希望得到祝福和祷告。
你会成为帮助我实现梦想吗？
Remembering the LORD @ 8:34 AM
Regaining Myself
After today, I wanna go back SOT to learn even more.
The past 4 days had been busy with visitation and everything yet when I am free, I really can't stand it.
Try to play Mafia War as a new friend recommended but still a bit boring.
Tried farming in facebook but getting more and more boring as my farm grew bigger.
Lols, I need to really study the bible all over again like last time.
Nowadays, there are many theologians that I don't need to be one, since I haven't feel the call but I loves theology, as much as I can learn, I wanna do more for Him.
I sometimes found myself doing things of the past but as I tried to let go, I now really understand that to reach my future and to secure relationships, I need to let go.
Changes is round the corner.
I am not the most strong and bold woman around but I know, if I don't do something, I will waste my talent.
I praying for my future to come, sooner than I can imagine.
I need to have faith to do all things through Christ who strengthen me.
Remembering the LORD @ 10:48 AM
Awesome Week Ahead
Man, this whole week, beside down with sore throat, it has been good thus far.
Thanks Bro Jairus [Who I don't know very well], Bro Kim Hock, my cgl Cindy and a couple other people who reminded me to take care of myself. Oh well, it was nasty to kena the virus but as I served more, I found myself feeling better than those times when I never really do much.
Man, what can you say about this?
Sometimes I complained because I was sick and yet people asked me to serve this and that but as I slowly learn to be willing in serving, I learn to love serving and learn to appreciate my God who is the greatest Servant of all.
He teaches me that by serving, I am doing it for His glory and He teaches me that in iniquities I can rejoice.
There are many things in my life to think about, but ultimately, I enjoyed myself and there are things I wonder will remain the same, but it seem like it is going somewhere else.
Tomorrow, I am having 2 more visitations and more to come.
I seeing more people coming for the Sat Newcomers' Tea Party and also Sun East Coast BBQ.
Man, after today International Pool Party, though I can't be there throughout but I glad to see the International Students and how they wanna to inspire one another.
I should go and rest soon. Long day awaiting for me. =D
Remembering the LORD @ 1:06 AM
未来的指标
我并不知未来将会如何。。。
只知道神为我预备了美好的事。
看着前方，心中有无数的彷徨。
将来会是如何。。。
我不敢去猜了。
只想带着信心走下去。
放弃了很多，想了很多。
现在，再想下去就很对不起自己。
走吧。
明天会更好。
Remembering the LORD @ 9:34 PM
更多神的同在
这几天真的有点累。。。
不知道是不是因为有点不适。
好想好好休息。
好好的养好我的身体。
但我知道我不能每天待在家里。
就算现在没有工作，我也要撑下去。
我行的！
因为我想更多有神的同在。
Remembering the LORD @ 9:52 PM
复活节
复活节提醒了我耶稣有多么爱我。
看见祂被钉在十字架时的情景提醒了我，如果不是因为耶稣的死与复活，我就不会在这里。
谢谢您的爱。
我期待明天的聚会。
明天会更好。Labels: 复活节
Remembering the LORD @ 8:43 PM
人生的尽头
不光是为着自己而活，也是要为我生命的主而活。
我一走道人生的尽头。
不想再想太多了。
是时候信靠神。
为主耶和华而活。Labels: 尽头
Remembering the LORD @ 9:40 AM
一个梦想
我有梦想。。。
就是做我自己所喜欢做的事。
我只想完成使命。。。
但是这段路不好走。
将来会发生什么事我不敢保证。。。
但是我想确保我的心是向着神的。
一颗纯洁的心
Remembering the LORD @ 11:33 PM
不想难过
友情是件很脆弱的东西。
有时，我真的不知道要这么应付。
要公私分明也不容易。
很多人说，我工作起来很严肃，我也这么认为，但大部分的人都不知道我很喜欢把事情全部做完了再玩。
心中的伤感有谁知道。
每个人都说他们不满这个不满那个。
我真的会累的。
只想建立友谊，不是摧毁它。
但不是每个人会这么想的。
我应该要做些什么？
难过的感受不好受。
Remembering the LORD @ 4:48 PM
Renewal of One Life
The past 2 weeks has been ups and downs in my life.
Faith is reignited as I looked upon Jesus.
Nothing beats the love He has for me and the plans He has for me.
Maybe, this is just a test for my faith before He is giving me what I has been asking of Him.
Prayers truly will work...
I just love to think and wonder but at the end of it, I realised, it is all for nothing...
Nothing left if you just sit around and wait.
I must be fervent in my prayers.
To receive what He has planned for me, I must first received it in my Spirit.
I am weak so that He can be strong.
My support, my strength!
Here I am God, Use me!!!Labels: Refresh
Remembering the LORD @ 10:15 PM
内心的挣扎
我并不晓得为何我会被带来这里。。。
我只想要一个答案。
等待真得很痛苦。
有谁能真正了解？
每个人都说他们也是有自己的挣扎。
我并不是不相信。。。
但是我需要人们的祷告还有希望神会记得我所为祂放弃的事。
请记得我。。。
我要拥有信心。。。
更多更多的信心。。。Labels: 挣扎
Remembering the LORD @ 8:28 PM
闲掉
我想，，我应该好好照顾我的身体。
在小组以前吃了方便面，小组以后，又被一家面食摊位骗了。
以为可以吃点好吃的，没想到会是用方便面煮的。
小组员个个都说是方便面，我也认了。
不会有下一次了。
真是的。。。Labels: 被骗了
Remembering the LORD @ 7:32 PM
信心的源头
信心的源头本为神。
没有神的同在，就没有信心。
缺乏祷告，就没有大能的同在。
我本为善，但凭着神的同在 祂的大能彰显。
不能回头看了。
只能向前看。
信心就在我的心里，与神同在。Labels: 信心
Remembering the LORD @ 10:59 AM
Unbelievable
Just before I going to sleep.
There are so many things that make me felt unbelievable.
First thing are the various things I am supposed to do tomorrow.
Thanks God that Abel stayed so near me, that I can ask for his help to carry the printer for me.
Next is the people I saw.
Man, I still feel a bit...
But... Maybe, think back... gonna see more happenings things in my life?
Well, today too tired to think.
Tomorrow not gonna drink coffee...
Coffee make me sick... =XLabels: Unbelievable
Remembering the LORD @ 10:42 PM
Breakingthrough...
God has kept His promises and He is bringing me into the Promise Land, bit by bit.
I was given permission to start sitting in lessons to learn and thanks for all the supports, I was happy.
Last time, I worried a lot, now? I leave everything to God and believing in breakingthrough walls.
Thank God for everything...Labels: Breakthrough
Remembering the LORD @ 11:46 PM
