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I'll wait for You, my LORD.

A Warrior Princess, Daughter of The Most High God, devoted to Mercy, Truth, Grace, Justice, Freedom, Dignity and Value

"You shall also be so beautiful and properous... a crown of glory and honour in the hand of the Lord..."
Isaiah 62:3


You don't have to know me to know my story.
I only need an audience that is faithful to follow my story.
It only take a second to see me.
But a hundred years to know me.
It only take 3 seconds to leave an impression.
But only a minute for me to treat you like my best friend.
What is your place in my life?
It is up to you to decide and I to make a decision.

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Evangeline Gabrielle Wang Shi Min

Physically BIRTH @ 25th Jan 1988
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Water Baptism @ 10 Sep 2005
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To a lovely and caring bf => Yang Changhan


A Million LOVES

[#01] God and His Kingdom
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[#01] Having God's presence EVERY SINGLE DAY!
[#02] More Revelations
[#03] More Inspirations
[#04] Love God Even More Each Day
[#05] Forever Passionate for People
[#06] Be a GOOD Shepherd
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[#06] Fujipix Z30 [Purple] Brought Sony instead!
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[#10] Chocolate Fondue
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Prayers
Saturday, May 30, 2009

Needing prayers and need to pray more.

More and more prayers and more and more prayers...

How much more can I say?

Praying for health, for direction, for a call from God.

I want to walk and continue walking yet halfway, the storm make me stop and pause.

God, I have heard Your voice and I just don't want to go down the ways of asking You why things are not moving.

For Your ways are higher than my ways...

God... Help me...

Really need another breakthrough.

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Remembering the LORD @ 10:56 PM

Happy, Joyful

Having a fun time in facebook with Hsuan and Val.

Goodness, we were like commenting over the status of mine.

What a weird dream.

I really think of chocolates too much.

Until it appears in my dream.

Goodness...

I want chocolates and they tasted so real in my dream.

I can taste the sweet and bitterness in the chocolate.

And I was dreaming of one kind of chocolates that is frozen in the ice and I stuck my finger it to get one and as I wanna get another one, my finger got stuck and I can feel the coldness and I saw myself go to the tap and wash it in hope of melting it which it did.

Hahaha It seem so so so real.

Maybe God brought me to chocolate paradise? =DDD

Remembering the LORD @ 1:14 PM

Remembering the Lord

The past one week with the Holy Ghost and the bible study just brought me back to a season of love with Christ.

Experienced deliverance and fully let go of something that had held on to me for years.

It was painful.

And often I asked God, if that time I was saved at the age of 13, maybe I won't be facing this until now.

Even after I got saved, it has being part of my life that I can't let go.

Even after my heart soften, this thing just continue to held on to me and in night terror, it once came and found me.

It was such a bad experience.

But after SOT, I stopped seeing spirits altogether but this thing never went away.

But I glad to be opened about it and to fully released myself from it.

In my whole life, only 2 people knew and I never received any true follow up by them and soon, they assumed I was alright and I never dared to even approached them ever again to talk about it.

Holding something on for so many years and fully let go is such an wonderful thing.

I once told my new CGL about finding myself hard to imagine that I can get attached as deep down, I found it hard to bring someone into my life and let him carry my side of burdens.

I always seek to help others yet try to be strong on the outside.

But I told my leader, I willing to let go, of the past tramatic experiences that occured after SOT and also inwardly, willing to let go of my past to move on.

The last day with Pastor Mike, as I fall onto the floor laughing after he blew into the mike, Sis Joy came to me somewhere along the ministrying and she looked at me who was rolling on the floor and said to me while she was laughing, "how are you doing down there? More?" And she waved her hands fervently, to give me more of the Holy Spirit and in turn, I fall onto the aisle laughing even more.

I thought to God, is this what You told me?

Holy Laughters are often indication of great inner healings.

And I came back not only to help to deliver people which I did for a couple of them, but also to receive healings to the heart that was once fully whole again.

Has been praying and asking and seeking.

And when Pastor Mike really stopped, he got us to stand to our feet to receive inner healings.

And goodness, unlike last time, mine was fast and quick and at the end, the Lord came to me, holding me and told me, the joy that I have just given to you, you will bring it to nations and spread it to them. You will deliver others, and set them free. Double portion of anointing you shall receive.

And after which, I opened my eyes, went to a couple of sisters and hugged them and let them cried.

When to someone who is from my zone and hugged her after Angela hugged her.

I can feel how they feel, and in my heart, I feel strongly to cry.

And after which Pastor Mike continued his lesson.

It was well past 1pm, and instead of deiverance, he wanted to give us impartation.

I fall at one go, stood up and fall again and I might as well stay there to enjoy God.

And really remind me of my vision and what I would like to see in my future.

It won't be easy, and some people came to me and said, it was amazing how I can stay like this awaiting God's promises, but I can't let go this easy.

Really so hard.

God... Please guide me through this season. =D Loving YOU!

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Remembering the LORD @ 11:12 AM

Friendship Turmoils
Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Sometimes, I really though I am just being a nice friend, listening and helping and trying to bring others up another level.

Sometimes, I really feel I need to loosen up so that I can be myself more when I am with them.

But sooner or later, I felt hurts all over again.

Someone said I talked too much and sometimes, it is not because I am a woman of many words but sometimes I just buried all that I want to say, and just say it out and when I share, there is a certain level of trust that I placed in the person, yet I felt hurts because it is like this all over again.

They expected me to edify them, but I found no edification from them.

I maybe expecting a lot but I feel that I am getting weary.

Burdens, burdens, burdens...

I just trying to be nice and trying to be myself and be opened and in turn, just trying to show the weak side of me.

But if no one is to be willing to listen, I think I should be wise to whom I share with.

I getting weary and my emotions getting flared up.

And now, I got to learn to control my emotions all over again.

God, what am I suppose to do? I am clueless.

In return, I get more hurts unknowingly, then more joy.

Lord, I am tired... really tired...

I need a refleshing touch and definitely a word from You.

Make me Your servant o God...

Remembering the LORD @ 10:10 PM

Overwhelming Feelings
Monday, May 18, 2009

Feelings can be such a bother.

It can overwhelm you and rob you from all that you believe in.

It can make you feel tired from all those overwhelming emotions that rush through your mind and crouded your thinking.

Emotions is good at one thing, to make you realised that you are still a human and you need to feel for one another.

Yet emotions turn back when it is out of control.

How I wish I can have more self-control in this area.

Maybe that why, I am going through all these situations right now while waiting.

It is overwhelming, but I need to practise self-control over all things.

Remembering the LORD @ 10:22 PM

等待
Monday, May 11, 2009

我又在一次放弃去中国的机会。

因为教会的查经课,我等待好久,终于有机会再次上康牧师的查经课了。

他将会教雅歌书。

关于关系和爱。。。

这是一本诗情画意的书。

我好期待。

同时,我要加把劲的努力祷告。

我好想实现梦想。

但是人们的疑惑让我好难过。

我好想凭信心而活。。。

Remembering the LORD @ 12:16 PM

Down in My Feelings
Friday, May 8, 2009

I must be super duper dumb...

Make such a silly mistake during SOT.

I forgotten this is SOT and, I really don't know what I am doing...

And I am super duper tired physically.

These few days are so tired God...

Really tired all the way and I got nothing else to describe how tired I am.

Went Alps Cafe yesterday, love the environment and also having fun playing games and sung K but the whole day had been walking and man, my body is totally drained by today.

=X God, help me, I felt like fainting and now so down in my Spirit.

I am a little sad too for the silly mistake I has make.

I wondered will those people think why this girl so weird when actually, I am just lost train of thinking.

=.= God help me, help me I pray.

Remembering the LORD @ 5:25 PM

Flu BUG! Be gone...
Monday, May 4, 2009

Hates the flu bug, been hanging around me for the past 3 weeks, I was on and off, falling sick and man, it was terrible.

From sore throat [which recovered fast] to a slight flu now, I got to remind people that I am not a pig so definitely not swine flu!

Goodness, with all the fears and worries around, man, I need to pray more.

Flu bug, be gone, if you hang around me, you so gonna die!

Remembering the LORD @ 11:19 PM

Vision Renewed

I was having a great time smsing my current cgl and disturbing my members and coordinators over msning.

And while I was chatting with the rest of the members in msn, I was smsing my leader about how I felt in this current CG after I asked her some stuffs in our conference.

Has been in youth CG ever since I came church and to combine with another CG and multiplied out as a youth adults, it was something new and never expected.

I always thought being with youths were God's will for me until the day I am launch out in the world and when I was in the new CG, as a youth adults, God told me that with new experience comes new responsibilities and I taken upon myself to learn to connect and to get to know more people.

As I was smsing my cgl, I was telling her leading youth adult is such an art and being in youth adults CG is so different and she glad I learnt something new and she knew that for the past few weeks, ever since Easter, I has been falling sick and she encouraged me and told to me be healthy and really take care of my health as she sensed that God will bring me to nations.

I was so touched.

There are moments, I really lost focus, I really don't know how God will lead me to be.

I missed the chance to go mission last year and this year, I gave up the chance to go China for Spelling Bee because of the Churchwide Bible Study and I really want to go for it so after talking to my leader about my desire to stay for the bible study, she also agreed that I shouldn't miss such an opportunity, who knows what I will be missing out?

And God said...

See bigger, there are lots of opportunities and right now, I want you to have the faith to believe in the things I have prepared.

I was touched and service just make it even better.

I need to expand my tent, be more focus and for the cause of the work of God, I need to heal with my life and be faithful in the things He has gave.

P.S. Side note, meeting Jenny and Jane on Sunday afternoon while waiting for Carrisa was a wonderful time. Glad that Jane liked the service and how our church function and she told Jenny that she would want to come every month just for the service. I was so touched by her hunger for God's presence. And beside that, they treated me to a drink at Starbuck just because I helped to bring them for service and took care of them.

My dream is to see the people get integrated and my leader is seeing the same thing too.

Let continue to move toward our visions and dreams.

I will continue to work hard... =D

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:26 PM

Love that break boundaries

Today service was really mind-blowing.

The story about the 10 lepers has been one of my favourite stories in the entire bible.

But to see it come to life really amazed me.

I was facing a lots of obstacles while on my way to service.

After a late night outing with my CG, I reached home at 3.50am, slept at 4.30am, and planned to wake up by 7am but my mum, unknowingly, took away my handphone as she found it a bad habit for me to sleep with my handphone beside me, so I never heard the alarm and I missed the time to wake up. I slept till 9.30am, woke up to find out that I missed Chinese Church Service, so I decided to go for Service 4 instead and just so happened, Jenny [NTU China Student] called me and said her sister and her are on the way to church, I don't have to wait for them and oh my, I felt really bad, I promised myself to wake up early and accompany them for the service due to the fact that Jenny's sister, Jane, was a visitor and she really want to see how our church function and she went for Service 1 yesterday and was really amazed by the acting of Pastor Steve Munsey and so she really want to go for Chinese Church Service and she managed to drag Jenny with her, and there I was, still at home, woke up with slight fever and flu and I missed the service.

So instead of accompanied them, I could only prepared for Service 4.

But the journey wasn't easy.

1st = My shoes was spoiled. Actually, I felt that I should wear my converse shoes but I wanted to go church early so I decided to wear another pair of shoes, but turned out, it was slightly spoiled, so I was on my way to the interchange after I went to take a look at a shop at Bukit Panjang Plaza and my shoes just failed me when I exited from the shopping mall.

In a moment time, I rushed back home or at least I was at my flat and asked my sister to help me get my converse shoes.

2nd = I ran back to the bus stop and there it was, my bus to Boon Lay Interchange, in a hurry, I ran across the traffic light [Of course it was green man, or else I shall be with my heavenly Father] and chased after the bus, with a laptop bag [charger and laptop all intact] and my big and heavy handbag.

3rd = I waited like 15 minutes for 241. It was 11.50am and I prayed that by 12.15pm I will reach church and lo and behold, I reached 2 minutes before the time and I decided to take the stairs as the lobby was jam packed with people and man, it was tough with many stuffs and I was feeling giddy...

4th = Finally I found a good seat at 2nd row, but... A sister came to me, and told me I looked familar and I thought she was just being friendly, seeing that I was alone. So I smiled at her and asked her a few questions so that I can know how come she found me familar then suddenly she whispered to me and asked me, can I shift to third row cause they were sitting as a zone, and feeling stunned, I shifted with a sad feeling in my heart.

BUT! The story didn't end here.

As I was feeling sick and down and asking God for healing, suddenly 3rd row seem to have many seats and I was shifted to the center of the row. At first, I was hoping to get a center seat at 2nd row, but nonetheless, as I looked carefully, I gotten a center seat. And I had nothing much to complaint cause God know how much I want to be at the center.

And as I was worshipping, God reminded me of a good old aunt that I gotten to know during my SOT days last year. Her name is called Jane and she was from China.

At the beginning of SOT, last year, when I first started out coming to church early in the morning, at around 7am, I will always queue up 1st than anybody else yet I was afraid to be the 1st so I let someone queue in front of me [who was Renata, if Renata is reading this, it was such a good memory right? To always queue up together. ^^] and the 1st time I came so early was 1 month after SOT. I was very provoked and desired to experience God even deeper and my pcgl at that time, saw this told me that I don't need to sit with the team at the back if I really want to sit at the front thus, she told me, unless I wanted to book seats for them, it is alright for me to sit at the front.

And that time, I started to come early, really early, compared to 8am in the morning and when the door opened, crazily, all of us ran into the lifts.

Then when I was in the hall, it was so messy and people are booking seats left right and center and I found a corner seat at the center 1st row of the floor area. I was a little upset cause I was hoping to sit at the center seat of the row and I was asking God how come it was like this? I came early and hoping to encounter You and along the way, everyone were so busy booking seats that they don't even spared a seat for me. Then I saw an empty seat, I don't know it was meant for the sound man, so I felt God telling me, why not you sit down here. And I happily sat down. Then to my amazement, we needed to shift and that time a brother, Leslie, was suppose to sit at the seat beside me and the middle age lady, Jane, was suppose to sit beside them and I actually shifted their bags.

To Leslie, he was alright cause he knew I came 1st in the morning but to Jane, she was upset and asked me how come I shifted her bag and I recognised her as the one who snatched my whole row of seats for my team mates once and I was pretty much upset with her.

Yet at the same time, I felt bad for shifting the seats and I asked God why this happening to me? It made me felt bad sitting at the center of the row.

But I never knew why until that very same day, Pastor talked about loving one another.

I went back home, feeling unsure about accepting someone who was unreasonable.

Yet the next time, as I came to church, I found myself helping her to book a seat. She was running but everyone gotten in front of her and as she came to the row, I turned to her and told her that I left a seat for you and she was so touched and our relationship took a turn.

A few months later, in Jun, Pastor Mike came to minister to us and during one of the break, she started sharing with me why she came to Singapore CHC Bible School.

She shown me a letter her daughter wrote and with tears she shared with me that she came here to learn how to love. She grew up in a broken down family that no one in her family accepted her because she was born as a girl and as she grew up, she carried this bitterness within her that even after her marriage, she found herself hard to love .

Her daughter grew up not knowing how to relate to her and even after Jane got saved, her daughter chose to stay away from her then to connect to her. This relationship is distant and it caused her tremendous pains and hurts.

Her church really supported her and loved her but she wanted to feel the true love of God and love her daughter back and hoped that her daughter can love her back.

She asked me to accompany her to see Sister Jo, Pastor Mike's wife and supported her.

She don't understand english and Sis Jo spoke in english but during the moment Sis Jo looked toward me as Jane approached her and I helped Sister Jo to translate as Jane gave her the letter that was written by her daughter in english and as Sis Jo ministered and I was translating, Jane was crying and I was tearing. The presence of God was tremendous and the testimony that Sis Jo was sharing about her daughter touches our heart.

It was hard to imagine what Pastor Mike and Sis Jo went through in those moments when they were facing the reality of how to accept their daughter when she committed sins and how they chose to forgive and forget and helped their daughter to move forward in life and really, it was something I can't ever forget.

As God reminded me of this during worship, I was tearing.

I really missed Aunty Jane.

Before SOT ended, she passed me some snacks and we had a wonderful times of fellowship and after an email, I never received a reply from her.

And today as Pastor Steve talked about accepting others and loving others and the level of forgiveness determined our level of faith, I was reminded of all the offenses we encountered during SOT and how God brought us through.

And I was reminded that now I am going to another level and my level of forgiveness must surely increases.

When sins abound, grace abound more.

We must always be graceful toward people, and love them no matter what happened. I learning this and will continue to work toward it.

Love break through walls and boundaries and it broke through mine and will continue to break it through.

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Remembering the LORD @ 1:34 AM

祷告
Saturday, May 2, 2009

有人能为我祷告吗?

Chloe刚刚找过我,问我有兴趣去中国并帮忙城市关怀中心的拼字大赛。

我们凭信心打算去,拼在过后才想如何还清机票的钱。

如果这是神的安排,请祷告我们可以如期还清机票的钱。

我们真的很想去,也想放下担忧。

就算现在没有经费,我们有一颗相信主的信心。

我好想好想到中国去。

这是我的梦想,也是我的呼召。

我想不顾一切的完成神呼召我所要做的。

信心是从听见而来。

我听见了。

现在要去完成它。

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:42 PM

Fighting On

I guess I am just too weak, falling against because I am too stressed up.

I need to seriously live with the thorn? I don't really understand.

This thorn is super painful and only leading me away.

God, can You stop it please? It is just too painful.

I just wanna love You.

Why can't I know You before I knew the devil, if not, I might not be struggling this much.

Yet out of the midst, I found myself, yielding for more.

It is sin of omission but yet at the midst, I know, it is the thorn within me.

Am I going to live with it forever?

I really don't know but Pastor Ming once said, God never take away the thorn because He want us to learn to live with it yet never give up.

I wanna to give up so much, yet I can't bear to do so.

I need to start fighting strong.

Much more than now...

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Remembering the LORD @ 12:30 PM

Prayers Needs
Friday, May 1, 2009

After I blogged it down the feeling I have been pressing within me for the past 2 weeks, I felt much better.

Sorry guys for going through the sad things with me.

I really need prayers, against attacks and against myself.

I need to have faith within me to carry on and to move on.

Will you be part of the team that pray for me?

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Remembering the LORD @ 11:31 PM

Burdens of the Heart

Tears feel like dropping...

Burdens clashing against me and again and again, again and again, why I kept feeling like this?

God... I need Your touch, Your love, Your voice...

To goes against all odds, to go against all comments.

I hated hearing people trying to push this and that to me, being so insensitive toward my feelings and kept on saying I am old, ugly etc and etc. They made me want to make them feel the hurts yet I always feel bad when I purposely do it.

There is an inner anger within me, that want to expose out again and again, again and again, but I hold it back because I trying to savage the friendships and trying to see that they are young, and ignorant but it is so hard when this season, I am going through a big struggle.

Who can be there beside me than God can be?

I think humans have reached the limit but God has not and I trying to shake it off.

I trying to behave normal, jokes and laughs but it is getting harder with every passing minutes.

Maybe this is a training process to make me stronger, maybe this is just there to make me rely on God even more, and maybe, I didn't look into the words of God deep enough to guard my heart, regarding anything, I need to give all burdens to God and send my prayers to Him.

I need a renew mind, badly.

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