Sink in a little...
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Thinking through...
Always treating every words with special care.
Missing people with a longing glare...
How I wish, people is always there yet even for myself, I can't say the same.
Sink in a little.
Into the sinking sand.
How I wish, I remain the same...
Yet as the years come and goes, I changes in many ways.
Yet one thing remain the truth...
Your words matters to me.
The words of people matters to me.
Even the words behind a sms matters to me.
I trying to be tactful but at the end of the day, how many people tried to be sensitive to their words?
One person's effort can make a different but how great can it be, compare to a group of people.
Maybe today it is just me.
But tomorrow?
Words can heal and words can kill...
How many people you and I have kill with careless words and meaningless actions?
How many people can I impacted if I put in more efforts?
I want to live a life of differences.
And I want to sink in a little.
To the sinking sands of Jesus.
The sinking sand of the heart of Jesus.
Does it matters?
Yes it does.Labels: Love
Remembering the LORD @ 1:30 AM
The near end of 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Long time never fellowship with Val and Carrisa.
Been at the airport since 12.30pm.
Sending Sun off and really very blessed.
Sun Fan club leader told me that she gonna brought Sun over to my group here when she finished get surrounded by a group of fans and even though some people as Val said was a little unhappy when I opened a way for my friends to come over but then, they were being pushed back by people. And I managed to be close to her in the group photo.
Really miss Sun and hope to see her soon 2 years later.
Went and brought Pi Pa Gao with Val and man, we are really addicted to it.
Throughout the time of waiting for Carrisa till the time she was with us, she had been enjoying that Pi Pa Gao of hers and man, I felt like buying a bottle.
I felt so much better after spending time alone and so fun to plan with them the camp.
More than 20 names from NYP side that she gonna help me invite even after I tried to narrow it down and more than 20 names from my side.
Well, let me see how it will go.
Really thanks God for the friends and tomorrow gonna meet up Joseph and Garfield for another round of fellowship.
God, thanks You for bringing all my friends to be here for me as a closing to 2008.
2009, I really for it to come!
A greater year with a greater dream and a greater calling...Labels: Year End
Remembering the LORD @ 11:50 PM
Away in Heaven
Today, I received news of a passing of a friend.
Livingstone George...
He passed away on the 27th Dec, at 5 plus India time.
When I received the news, first thought that came to my mind was...
Are you kidding me?
Is this a joke?
It is not funny at all.
I knew about his sickness when I was browsing through his facebook a week back when I never saw him online.
But I never thought, it would take him away.
I was never very close to him.
Yet I remembered, how he always came for our outing and helped us even when he didn't has much to give.
He came without financial yet he went back India a happy man.
Still remembered we were at the airport and we were sending him off.
We went to the wrong gate and again we went to the wrong gate until we found the correct one and I rememebered I told him, I want to go to India and preach the gospel and he smiled and said he will bring me around and take care of me by feeding me with all those wonderful india food.
Yet, until now, it was hard to believe such a nice friend would leave the earth at such an early age.
Yes, I asked God why...
Yet I know, he is in heaven right now, watching over us with Jesus.
Livingstone, we missed you.
I will never forget the photo we took with Victor and I often called the both of you GIANTS for the two of you were towering over me.
Yes, you might not be able to enjoy Christmas to the fullest but now you are with Jesus and we will see one another once again when I enter into heaven in due season.
I will accomplish my vision from God and I will make sure I will go to India in the near future of 3-5 years time.
Rest in peace my friend.
I thank God for the wonderful times we shared.Labels: Tribute
Remembering the LORD @ 12:33 AM
Despair? God will take it away...
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Stress? Despair? Depress?
God will take it all away.
I just remember...
God is still good and wonderful.
Love me and love the people around me.
My mum came to service just like what God promised.
My friends came for service.
Yes, they might not know Him.
But it is a new beginning.
Tired physically. But I still happy and this week I sending Sun off.
I make sure I will be there early.
I just wanna grab a chance to take picture with her.
God, be my strength always.Labels: Strength
Remembering the LORD @ 10:23 PM
Unforgetable Christmas Night!
Can't believe I had such a crazy night with Pearly and Yan.
First of all, Pearly decided to has a heart to heart countdown and we went Espanade for a wonderful but heartwarming countdown and before that we earned a special luncheon with someone because we wanted to spend time with our old time discipler so... I was shocked beyond words and wow... God works in miraculous ways as we decided it is time to learn more.
And guess what?
We are struck.
By faith, we took the train to Marina Bay, not knowing it was the last train of the night and man... We are lost...
Construction sites everywhere, with no traffic except trucks and uncles who worked there. And along with us, a boy and a philippine lady were with us but the boy went missing when he chose to walk a direction toward changi airport according to the lady.
And thus, we were on our journey to the Promise Land of cab and traffic.
So here we were, lost and tired with our feets as our burden, we continued to walk and out of the blue, a China man joined in, lost and confused. The five of us walked on and man, it was such an unforgetful night.
Our pocket were not full but our heart was full of faith.
We reached Raffles Place, and our hope came in the form of a car called Taxi.
And aloha!
Now I am in front of my 2nd darling, Mr Acer Aspire 2920Z and man, I needed some rest and wow... I still don't feel like sleeping.
Oh well...
It was afterall, my 4th Christmas Night!Labels: Christmas
Remembering the LORD @ 3:04 AM
Appreciate to Aloha
Monday, December 22, 2008
Aloha is where I found myself slacking and chit-chat with Vok kor, Lena, Red Sao Sao, once a while appeared, BB Mum.
I dare to say, I enjoyed the times in Aloha and proud to be in Aloha for the past 1 year.
The times we have and still having.
Even Ling is known is Aloha.
I missed out a lot in my months of MIA status.
Vok always said, have fun in your own pace and Ling always said the same too.
Guess, I just missed them too much. They dote on me in a different ways.
Being friends of the world, they still provided pillars of support in their tiny ways of cuteness.
Not in real life though yet in the virtue life, they are my faraway siblings.
I glad to chat with Vok a little while today.
To have fun and be that spoiled little sister of his.
I always come and boom, a new niece or nephew will come out and man, my adopted brother adopted more nieces and nephews.
And though we are in our 20+ but being intoduced as aunt still sound old isn't it?
Then Lena, with her fierce voice will come knocking on my msn window and said hey, come online and boom I will appear.
Lena is like an unknown adopted mum of mine. 30+ years old and still hyper.
Man, I wonder how she handle real life.
They might be from the world but a little appreciation for always treat me like a family.
Maybe it is a year end mood...
But I really thanks Aloha for the loves...
Aloha!Labels: Appreciation
Remembering the LORD @ 1:26 AM
Just Being ME =D
To end of a long season of hibernating.
First of all, thanks Carrisa for being so hyper over my birthday. I will make sure your 22nd birthday is not your own setting it anymore. =D
And next followed by Mark who I really thanks God to always meet you when I got a revelations for growth for NYP. Now we must go ahead to plan it don't we. Plus being supportive along with Carrisa for my crazy idea of a birthday. Even got confirm friends already. I was touched. Feel so tempting to ask who will be there but I want to keep it as a surprise too. As curosity killed the cat. I don't want to be a cat.
Then Val for kept me companied when I went for the weird outing. Thanks God I met you, or else, I will be so weird at the outing as it is just not my cup of tea.
And I thanks my favourite anime series which I rushed out to watch finished.
Now watching Blood+ after I finished rewatched Bleach, Naruto Shippeden.
Someone once said to me saying, "anime is for kids, why do you like it?"
The reason is the same as why I loves Harry Potter...
They are never realistic.
Sometimes it can be a pain living in a realistic world, being too realistic and too logical.
The past few years before I knew God, to recognise that I still can cry is through the anime that I watched. From magical to angst, they kept me in check.
The more sad it is, the more it reminded me that life is not always happily ever after for everyone and it kept me compassionate about people.
They taught me more things than people can ever imagine about life.
Innocent is not equal to virtue.
I long lost that innocent part of me.
Yet people said in the heart, I am still innocent in my spirit.
Maybe anime give me that part of innocent that the world can no longer contain it.
I enjoyed it. And I enjoyed romance and sappy shows in my own ways. I enjoyed watching fighting scene and even though there are times I lost my appetize because of a bloody scene I watched in anime, I still enjoyed it in my own ways.
Some said I'm a saddist, some said I'm child-like, some said I'm just enjoying myself.
But I said, I just being myself.
Being in my own world of imagination.
But God reminded me, I must entered that imagination realm with Him more often.
I feel that as long as I lived and as long as anime directors lived, I will continue to watch it without ceasing.Labels: Being Me
Remembering the LORD @ 1:16 AM
Prayers for the next year
2008 is coming to a close. And 2009 is coming near.
How I wish life is not fully too complicated yet not too simple as what fun will it be when everything is predictable?
As I was caught in a moment of uncertainty and confusion. I realised, it is all about letting go and welcoming a brand new year and a brand new me.
There is so much more than this... Somehow I knew it.
Maybe more than just a phone call and an email.
What I need is comfort from the Lord and friends.
At the end of 2008, my friends of future remains. My friends of a season drifted away and what left is friends of the now.
I tried to be a friend to the now but sometimes it is hard. To maintain this and that, to keep a smiling face.
I let go a little while of it and boom, what I heard is not concern...
Yet I can only thanks God for a life of chances.
I want to learn to hate the things He hates and love the things He loves. Though sometimes I don't understand but I just wanna tried. I don't know if I never try.
My prayers for next year is for me to be wiser, sharper, more tactful and loving, be able to do the things of God's will, be able to adjust myself to the working life, has a memorable 21st birthday, identified more friends of the future, be able to draw boundaries yet never lost myself to emotional walls and most of all, get rid of the remainder "me" that is not the design of God and also to be fruitful and more prosper so that I can be a blessing.
I will always remember in Isaiah, God always said, His ways is higher than my ways, His thoughts higher than my thoughts.
Enough of wandering.
2009 is drawing closer and I yet starting what I suppose to do.
I smirked and laughed.
I cried and I hid.
I smiled and I danced.
Now a brand new year?
What should I begin it with?
A life of prayers...Labels: Prayers
Remembering the LORD @ 12:53 AM
A penny for a thought
Friday, December 19, 2008
Coming close to my 21st birthday, there are few crazy things I wanna do and have:
1. Camping for my birthday
Carrisa and Mark are doing their best to make it one of the wildest and crazy camp as I required. Guess, I'm the first of all to request it.
2. To travel to the unknown
Now still impossible for I still didn't have a free air ticket to countries that I never go before.
3. To receive a new business phone
Man, now is recession, unless someone really get call to buy one for me. Blame it on Mr Elijah for showing me his first white business phone E71. Man, it is by far the nicer phone I saw in the market out there that Blueberry, nope... strawberry, nope... Eh BLACKBERRY that fight with!
4. To eat till dead drop
I never eat a lot yet for my birthday, all I planned is... eat and eat and eat... Man, I gained weight and when Pastor Kong mentioned... "pray for your neighbour for their unfulfill resolution." First thing I told my partner... "Pray that I lost weight!" =.=" Man, I need to be of a healthy proportion. Now I dumped all my beloved subway for fried food again. Guilty... guilty...
5. New guitar
I want to stop running from my guitar. After sending my 2nd hubby, Mr Guitar, away... I has been missing my dear Takamine. Man, I starting to has plan for a new hubby. How flirt my heart become... Now, it is time for guitar lesson... And man, I stopped running away and look at guitar teachers with a disgusting look like the time I stopped learning guitar. Any kind soul want to give away guitar, please find me, Ms Evangelist... OOP, Ms Evangeline... Hahaha
More to add on?
When it is time to add on, then maybe...Labels: Thoughts
Remembering the LORD @ 1:55 AM
New Dimension...
Having Carrisa and Mark as my friends are wonderful.
As wonderful as our clique can be...
But finally we came to a conclusion!
We need to bring a new dimension to our clique but bringing new faces and reach out to the world.
We need a new dimension, new synergy and new goal...
2008 is coming to an end, now is the time to plan for 2009.
I gonna make it through once again, now with new job and also... New vision...Labels: New Dimension
Remembering the LORD @ 1:37 AM
Definitely...
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Carrisa dear, first of all I wanna thanks you for helping me with my upcoming 21st birthday.
It is never a factor in me to celebrate my birthday but yet I loves spending times with my loved ones.
Was sharing with Mark and Carrisa about my crazy ideas for it and they found it wild yet exciting though the most crazy one won't happen on my actual birthday.
5 more weeks to go before I grow a year older.
And now it is finally time for me to plan for my next 1 year.
In life, ministry and last of all relationship.
4 years had passed by unknowingly, and I going to reach my 5th year soon, this 5th is going to be a chionging year for me.
I definitely will buck up and Carrisa promised me a memorable birthday and how I wish this 5 weeks will go by sooner.
God, make my day and weeks and years an even exciting story than it can even be.
Love YOU!Labels: Birthday
Remembering the LORD @ 1:03 AM
Truths
Hearing truths is better than lies...
I has heard many asking and wondering why they failed in life...
Yet are they ready to hear the truths?
That it is not the outside factors that determine the success of their lives...
But it is how they views themselves that determines how others views them.
I want to see myself as a better person and I trying to cope too...
Truths, it is hard to accept but easy to say it out.
Truths is precious as not much people will ever be bold to say...
Are you ready for the truths?
Or...
Are you living in the lies?Labels: Truths
Remembering the LORD @ 9:35 PM
