A revisit of the past
Never thought God will want me to face the past like this.
The same feeling, the same word.
From different person.
But the spirit behind it is the same.
The same unteachable spirit, the same attitude.
Has been 2 years or is it 3?
When I shared with Amanda, though I just knew her today, but this meeting has totally turn our life around.
I never thought I will see myself in another person's shadow.
To see someone nearly walked the path I once walked.
But I glad God allowed us to meet.
There were moments when I met the person in church, I will feel the creep.
It have been 2-3 years but whenever I saw the person, all I thought of was why has I been so trusting?
This person clearly hasn't been having a good motive, and had been a stumbling block to my growth at my prime period so many yrs back but thank God for Kenrus at that moment.
Because he voiced out the same feeling that I had felt, that when I cut off the friendship and stopped the bad influences.
Today, I saw the same thing happening in another person's life.
Different person, but the same spirit and attitude.
And God always has a way to gather people to help someone.
A chance meeting, a sharing and fellowship session.
All the doubts and confusion was cleared and we managed to help the person in this crucial time.
God is a good God.
Though I revisit my past, I came out stronger and I thank God.
Past is nothing to be afraid of.
Past is a reminder of who we once were and a reminder of our victory that is already in Christ.
This revisit shown me that experiences are there so that we can help those who faced the same problems that we faced so many years back.
I found that I was not the only with the same problem, someone also once faced it, but because we went through the pain, therefore we can help someone else in need.
God, thank You so much for always being a kind and loving and merciful God.
=D Your LOVE never fails!Labels: Love
Remembering the LORD @ 3:04 AM
Must rest well
Goodness, gastric plus giddines = lying on bed...
Today suddenly feel sick, must be the antibotic. I hate the taste of it.
It isn't helping me at all...
That what it get for eating something you don't like. =X
Remembering the LORD @ 12:19 PM
Paying the Price for a GREATER Cost
Sometimes, when you met someone you like, the person might not be the one.
Sometimes, when you met someone you don't like, the person got to understand that maybe you are not the one.
Hearing the story of my friend from SOT, I felt like crying for him.
Same age as me...
And as others are going through season of love, he chose to give up because he know that the girl that he like is not the one for him.
Though their feeling is mutual, yet they know deep down that they are not meant to be.
How familiar is the scenario?
We all goes through season like this in part of our life.
When I heard this story, even though I was telling him that God has a better plan, but I was still tearing.
This is a boy who grew up when his father sent him over to Singapore for SOT.
And his life was transformed.
He told me that he is alright because God is happy.
And I can sense the joy of the Lord, and this is someone who pay the price.
I want to be like him, honoring God 1st beyond anything else.
From the boy that I 1st knew at the start of SOT to someone who sacrifice for God at the end of SOT.
The change was tremendous, and I know, this is just the beginning.
Jia you everyone...
The journey ahead will be tough yet enjoyable.
For we all pay a price for a GREATER cost!Labels: Sacrifice
Remembering the LORD @ 9:33 PM
Remembering them
I must have seldom emo over this.
But yesterday as someone brought up in msn about Chi-na, I can't help but emo.
Was emailing my SOT team mate and was updating one another how we each doing.
And he suddenly told me about his heart desire.
He shared that it is hard for minister to settle down in that country.
Low pay, unstable...
Women looking for husband who is financially stable.
He said I will understand, and I did.
I knew of the woman who rejected him too after the 3 names incident, though he didn't know that I know since the woman told me.
Now nearly 1 year...
When I heard the SOT are going to do the same thing, I thought of them...
Well, none of the brothers that I knew last year succeeded.
Most failed miserable.
And speaking about China, I missed both him and another brother.
Just before they went back, we were in the airport fellowshipping, talking about this and even as one of them boarded the plane, their heart was still saddened.
Because they are already crossed 30, yet they couldn't settle down.
Ministry successful, but on another side, they lacked the one area that God has called everyone to fulfil.
I hasn't forget them.
God, guide them through...
Really want to see them happy.
A year has passed...
Many things has happened yet I believe, beyond countries, God is for us...Labels: Remembering
Remembering the LORD @ 10:33 AM
Personal Joke
I think Leslie now is having headache, caused I can't stop laughing at our joke about my 1TB hdd.
What so amazed about it?
It all started out by him want me to open my collection to him.
To get me to open my collection has a price that he must pay for.
Hehehe..
Cause most collections are extinct and can't be found anywhere.
And I holding them because I got my ways to find it and it is good for my research next time on theology.
Hahaha And man, he asked me what birthday present I want for my 22nd birthday.
Told him I want a hdd, he went... WHAT! 2 hdd...
I got shocked too...
We only agreed on one, where the another come about, then realised... chey, he getting it for me before my birthday. =.=
Man, this brother of mine from SOT, forever so cute de.
People remembered him as Mini Pastor Ming, or the cute brother at the 1st row who was my class partner in SOT days.
And I gonna myself another mission, to pray for a wife for him.
Wahaha Brother, you can de, God has a plan for you.
Last year never work out, soon...
Plus, sister here add in a few words.
That all for the night. Cough cough, need to wake up at 6am for medicine.Labels: Joke
Remembering the LORD @ 1:28 AM
Preparaing for a book...
Maybe I should start writing a book on, how to counter against harassing guys?
Or should I make it another title?
Goodness, I thought I am over with this kind of problems...
Or so, by putting it very clearly, in blog, facebook that I disliked pestering guys, desperate guys... Wait, I put it last time, I think to be more compassionate, I took them down.
But nonetheless, it caused me unnecessary waste of time to confront this person.
Latest addition, a guy who claimed to be my bf and went to my member and told her that I wanted to keep it secret and asked her tons of secret until, she msned me and I stopped it.
Now, a couple of people came and msned me...
Some was shocked... coz... I counted for them...
I met 1 pervert, 1 hp harassor and 1 despo men in Secondary 4, 1 despo man before Poly Yr 1, then on and off, a few weird guys who added me in fb and friendster, then 1 undesirable matchmaking last Nov, 1 one-sided intended matchmaking last Dec, 1 despo old time classmate, 1 one-sided intended matchmaking this July [Thannk God I already hinted that not interested].
Plus today...
I counted, more than 10 incidents!
Is it even normal?
Was it even intended to be like that for a normal girl like me?
Wow, I can be an expert liao...
In dealing guys...
Hahaha... But all in all, it added into my expert list.
But still, I thank God...
So far, I has fought for the promise between God and I.
And as time go by, I grow in my belief.
Maybe that why people mentioned, someone who went through this test with God will face many trials and tribulation.
As SOT is in the season of love again, I thank God I kept my promise and I thank God as time passed by, on one hand, I did tell many people last time, how determined I am to accomplish my plan before 22.
I still doing it and I did well thus far.
Maybe next time I can write a book for sure.
Now, I awaiting my Christmas present le.
Whee, cause I found out when I received my hdd.
Remembering the LORD @ 12:46 AM
Prayers answered thus far
Did anyone know...
So far, so good...
All my prayers come to pass after years of wishing.
I received the audio sermons I wanted so much during SOT.
I received sponsorship to Sri Lanka instead of China but it is still good?
I going to receive my hdd after I wished since my current hdd is functioning badly... And I nearly chewed Garfield's head off.
I was given permission to attend SOT, though sadly, not all times I can attend as I did need to rearrange everything and plan my next step for my next season.
My parents also there to support which is good.
And like I always said, so far so good.
Even pressure from people vanished because of my parents.
So far, one more aim, health!
Man, this year must be the worst year for my health.
Food poisoning, flu...
No wonder got a quiz said I was prone to cold. =.= Though it sound silly.
Well, I still taking my time, while I space out to focus on what I should be doing.
So far so good.
I enjoyed everything as of now.
And I walking by faith...
My CGL gave me the same suggestion that I have in mind.
What I have in mind?
Hmmm... Secret...
Like what Chloe and I both think, we better off working freelancing then full-time.
For me, because I wanna keep myself available while still maintain income.
Hahaha...
That how most people with a dream like mine, might choose to do.
The journey ahead might seem tough, but I ready to enjoy it. =D
Oop... And I awaiting for a hdd before my birthday, so Leslie... will be hunt down by me. =D
Remembering the LORD @ 9:45 PM
Because of You, I dare to believe
One year ago, I won't have the full trust and faith to believe that God can really make things happened in the most mysterious and fun ways.
One year ago, I won't believe that I be opened and see things in a whole new way.
I thank God...
I thank Him for answering my prayers thus far...
So that I can have the faith to believe that it is possible.
That I might be able to have my prayer answer on my next birthday.
I still praying and still seeking.
Just so that I can have the faith to walk on.
Because of You, God, I dare to believe!Labels: Faith
Remembering the LORD @ 8:55 PM
A legacy continue...
For those who know me well, I has been searching for a good middle name.
One that is meant for after water baptism.
I has always wanted a Christian and a month before my water baptism, God put the name "Evangeline" in my heart that represented my vision, my dream but I has been trying to find another middle name.
Not that having "Evangeline“ is not enough but...
I always wanted a name that is shorter in pronunciation.
And today, I finally decided to use Gabrielle.
According to origin and meaning of Gabrielle, it means - A feminine form of Gabriel, meaning "heroine of God."
I has always love Gabriel the Arch Angel.
Evangeline mean Messenger of God and it expressed my heart, my vision and dream.
But this middle name, mean something else.
It mean the nature of my character or how I want my character to be.
Gabrielle shall be a name that won't be used by others.
Evangeline will still be my name and the name that I hope that one day will be remember for the legacy that I going to leave behind.
I hope that one day, all of our name will be remember by the world.
For our contribution and differences we make.Labels: Gabrielle
Remembering the LORD @ 8:16 PM
Remembering the Promises of God
Today Pastor Kong talked about Sri Lanka.
Seeing the photo, reminded me of what made me wanted to go for the trip.
I wouldn't forget all the encouragement way back in my younger days.
When my ex-ZS encouraged me to believe that I can be sponsored and used my license to make a difference.
4 years down the road, because of Yi Lun, I made it through and this is just a beginning.
Thanks Pastor Kenneth for the opportunity too.
And I shared my testimony for the Sri Lanka trip for our LYL services last sat, for the Jurong 3.30pm service at Chinese Church Hall and for last sun, Expo service at 12pm at Conference Room 1.
God has really been good.
He has provided for my needs in this season and I met a couple of people who saw the photo from the mission trip. One of them, my fellow SOT classmate told me that she heard about what I went through previously from our common friend from the fellow zone and we had a great time talking.
I really thank God for keep on staying for me in this season.
He is faithful and trustable.
Because of Him, I can be at where I am.
In the midst of all, God also deal with me in various areas and bring me further with Him.
In my whole life, I had never see rainbows as many times as this season.
The 1st time I saw it was when my great grandma passed away. I never knew her but I knew many unknown relatives through her funeral. I wasn't saved yet but who knows, 4 years later, I was saved and walking with Jesus.
The 2nd time I saw it was after service, when I was still doubtful about my decision to fight for the ministry I want to go for. It was a decision after 3 confirmations and after which, God opened many doorways for me to meet various leaders that ultimately brought me into the ministry.
The 3rd time I saw it was the 1st day of the Sri Lanka trip. Pastor Kenneth told us that the Abraham's promise is here and God is with us and we leave the hotel room in the middle of the night, praying for the journey. Even with cope up, we prayed it through and made it safely to our destination.
God is faithful and truth.
In Him, there is no worries.
Once again, my faith is stirred up.
God has brought me this far.
It is not about my age that matters.
I has enough people that told me that 21 is such a young age and I got a long way to go.
And I believe I going to walk a long way till I finish my purpose for this generation.
Jer 1:4-11
4 Then the word of the LORD came to me, saying:
5 “ Before I formed you in the womb I knew you;
Before you were born I sanctified you;
I ordained you a prophet to the nations.”
6 Then said I:
“ Ah, Lord GOD!
Behold, I cannot speak, for I am a youth.”
7 But the LORD said to me:
“ Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’
For you shall go to all to whom I send you,
And whatever I command you, you shall speak.
8 Do not be afraid of their faces,
For I am with you to deliver you,” says the LORD.
9 Then the LORD put forth His hand and touched my mouth, and the LORD said to me:
“ Behold, I have put My words in your mouth.
10 See, I have this day set you over the nations and over the kingdoms,
To root out and to pull down,
To destroy and to throw down,
To build and to plant.”
11 Moreover the word of the LORD came to me, saying, “Jeremiah, what do you see?”
And I said, “I see a branch of an almond tree.”
12 Then the LORD said to me, “You have seen well, for I am ready to perform My word.”
This is just the beginning and I will continue to walk in faith according to His promises. =DLabels: Promise
Remembering the LORD @ 9:51 PM
