Tough but BREAKING Through
I wish my friend is here so that I can share more.
But I also know, even if he asked me to sms him whenever there is anything even as he is at overseas, I couldn't really do it if it is meant to make me strong.
Facing the possibility of losing job, wanting to rush to Haiti, facing people who I don't know whether they can see that instead of being negative, they should be positive...
Etc and etc, I wish I can complain and I turned to God. Because I want to be stronger with the strength of God.
Yet I leave a message when I thought I am going Haiti and when I am not and also the news about our church building because, all these define my moments of breaking through, even if I hasn't been to Haiti and last min received news that I wasn't in the team but still, I am in the waiting list, awaiting news from MJ and the Citycare Org.
And I thank God for the watch and chocolates.
It remind me that I should still be awaiting.
I was partly thinking, if I go for the trip, I might not be back in time for the celebration and in my heart, I am praying that it will not clash and I double checked a couple times to ensure, it will not clash.
When I couldn't go Haiti, somehow, my friend was being encouraging... and said, if it is meant to be, I should be happy and indeed, I am happy...
I never think much like being asked not to, and my mind really goes blank but as many things came clashing into me, I saw the hands of God holding me.
And... I looked at the chocolates and as I ate it, I feel less stressful.
Indeed, it is tough but breaking through. =)
And... for side note... 20th Jan in 4 more days... Awaiting the return of my friend. =) Have a safe trip back...Labels: Breakthrough
Remembering the LORD @ 12:59 AM
