Pondering Thoughts
Monday, November 10, 2008
Only my beloved brother can speak wisdom to me in that area beside God and a few others.
Advices that make me ponder nights and yet doesn't make me feel pressurizing.
Has been chatting with him, my brother from SOT last night.
Always been an adviser to me.
Sometimes people don't understand why I share so much with him, but since the SOT days, he has been taking of me like a sister, just like Vok from the "marketplace", and it caused me to be open just like a sister.
He mentioned something that even right now I am still thinking.
Am I making that promise because I'm plainly stubborn, or it is because I want to prove that I can do it just like others who has run before me.
People questioned about my decision to go with the promise but only one person encourage me to go.
God never speak anything and I go with it because the one who asked me to is someone I really treasure but now the question being raise up and how much longer am I going to avoided it?
Who doesn't want to be take care by someone?
Who doesn't want to feel love?
Who doesn't want to feel security?
Who doesn't want to be lead?
And who doesn't want to be the special woman that cause a man to settle down?
I always tells myself and others that I am too young and I proved it by acting young and hide myself away.
I afraid to face the truths that I am just a woman, who want to be mature and show forth all that she has.
But most importantly, I don't want to lost the last moment of childhood memories that I has.
I wish I can speak more...
Yet I remain silent and runaway.
Words is not something I'm good at.
How long shall I be before I receive an answer?Labels: Thoughts
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