Killing My Weak Flesh
So tired to think of working tomorrow.
Facing difficult people, got to learn to take very harsh words lightly.
It isn't easy.
But God always give me great time after work.
This season is like a training to strengthen my spirit, to enlighten my soul and to enrich my body.
It is a time of training when my weaknesses are exposed and I got to face them and get rid of them to move on further.
With new CG structure, I got to once again have the chance to serve more and I am glad to allow myself to be in line with the plan of God.
I awaiting the day the Lord will show me the plan He has for me in the place that I am at.
Killing my weak flesh and move forward to a greater dream of all.
Jia you, I shall live up to my name.Labels: Strength
Remembering the LORD @ 9:57 PM
A regaining strength
God has always and always been my strength.
When things arises, troubles come my ways, persecution and many many challenges come ahead of me, God has always ensure He will be there to guide me, to protect and to carry me.
So many things had been for the past 2 weeks, at workplace, I had faced not so nice treatment for being young at work and unsure of the things that is going on and at moment, the surprising things are, the most quiet and 2nd senior collegue of mine turned out to be the most patient and kind toward me. When I unsure of what going on, at least I can still shared a little bit and rely on God for His help.
And thank God for my CG.
Yes, many of the times, I don't understand the ways my leader led me, but as the months passes, God revealed and assured me that right here, right now, this CG, this leader is who I suppose to be.
We grow together from a young CG and misunderstanding arises, troubles come yet in the end, God make things clear and we love one another more, we understand one another more, past hurts, past incidents all ended through the power of God and the story started with love and it is never the same again.
It took me 4 years to slowly come to a point of fully trusting God, trusting my leader, and in turn, trusting friends...
It isn't easy but I learn it nevertheless.
My family also changes...
CNY, I went to visit my grandmother's house and in turn, got to know my 2nd youngest cousin attended church 2 times and though she know not much but she claimed it to be her church. My aunt a great follower of my family "traditional religion" heard about it and came to the room to try to challenge her who is like 14 years old and started to wanna provoke me. She went as far as bringing a poster of Buddha and asked me to see and asked me what it was. I was so mad, I refused to look. My mum came in, saw what happened and got upset with my aunt and said, "this religion no better, they also has bad attitude and treated everyone un-nice and being fake etc and etc."
I was stunned. My mum calling her own religion a nonsense? It was something new and she defended me and man, I forgotten all my past challenge and look ahead in hoping of my family salvation in the month to come.
God regained my strength, encourage me to move on and giving me wisdom and understanding even in the midst when I got anxiety panic but I still make it through.
Thank You God... Really thank for Your life for in You, there is eternal life...Labels: Strength
Remembering the LORD @ 12:54 AM
Despair? God will take it away...
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Stress? Despair? Depress?
God will take it all away.
I just remember...
God is still good and wonderful.
Love me and love the people around me.
My mum came to service just like what God promised.
My friends came for service.
Yes, they might not know Him.
But it is a new beginning.
Tired physically. But I still happy and this week I sending Sun off.
I make sure I will be there early.
I just wanna grab a chance to take picture with her.
God, be my strength always.Labels: Strength
Remembering the LORD @ 10:23 PM
