Stop Envy, Start Moving
Friday, February 10, 2012
My heart just keep on admired what people have.
I always found it so faraway.
Yet when others look at it, it isn't that faraway.
I need to stop envy and start moving!
Remembering the LORD @ 12:32 AM
I am HERE
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Months since I last blogged here.
When was the last time?
I don't remember.
Nevertheless, I miss my time here.
A lot of things in mind.
BUT... I AM HERE!
Remembering the LORD @ 9:15 PM
Growing up and still growing
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Sometimes, I feel that I am very childish.
What others do upon me, I will do it back upon them.
People showed me attitude, I will show a face.
Yes, my heart is hurt.
Being mistreated by colleague who I used to joke with just because I can always finished my work on time and she? Busy work and taking her time to work and until someone shared about she being jealous of me and always backstabbed me, I start to feel a sense of dislike and hatred for her.
I kept it inside of me but recently, after I finished my work and rushed for CG, someone called me over the weekend and told me the things she said behind my back and the next day, came back to work to find that she showed attitude toward me.
Am I hurt? Yes.
I remembered asking her whether she is okay with her work before I needed to leave and this will surprised many, she knew every friday I won't be able to work extra hours and recently, I am assigned to handle foreign trades while she is still doing local trades. I taking my time with my work, while she needed to handle hers. I can handle mine pretty well even with extreme high volume, why can't she?
And it voice down to politic. People told me the cruelty of politics, I saw it, experienced it when I was in other working environment but this one... Being backstabbed many time without realizing it and every time I wonder, why this happened and slowly the mysteries opened up.
The root cause is just beside me. You might think I am trying to blame it on hers but I witnessed others who suffered. One even want to quit...
You might be thinking, what does it got to do with my topic... Growing up and still growing...
Well, today I made a decision to move on from here. Even if it happened again, I will brush it aside for now. And keep praying for God's strength. I can't do this alone, I need a bigger capacity with Jesus and may Jesus be the strength of my heart!
Let me grow up and keep growing...Labels: Thoughts
Remembering the LORD @ 8:37 PM
Back or not?
It's been months since I logged in.
These few months, many things have changed.
Myself and others.
Finally, I have entered into adulthood with a stable job and worked for the past 1 year and 1 month.
Saving hard, preparing for wedding and lots and lots of things to think about.
Guest list, gowns, wedding bands, etc and etc.
1 year and 1 month from now I will be officially a married woman but while the time is slowly ticking by, I will enjoy the current time.
Over the months, I have watched people engaged, fall apart, married and etc and etc, and it make me treasure the current time and the future to come.
I have a wonderful fiance even though I complained a lot.
He loved me, this I know.
He cared for me, this I know.
Most importantly, he believed in me and my ability to handle marriage in the future.
And also, I hold his entire saving! Heehee...
Where his treasure is, there his heart will be.
I thanks God for each wonderful moments.
Believing and I shall upload photos next time!Labels: Happiness
Remembering the LORD @ 8:47 PM
Never ever...
I give up.I will never ever smile at the person from now on.
I will close up my emotions.
I will so that he won't think I always throw temper.
I have enough of this myself.
Enough of myself.
Enough of the nonsense of trying to get attention.
Enough...
Never ever will I trust...
Remembering the LORD @ 9:01 AM
Why is there such a thing called game?
Sometimes I wish, that game is not being developed or out in the market.For 10 years, the 1st series is in the market but out of the blues, last year it was out and all I felt is a sense of being left out.
A waste of time is what I believe.
A waste of precious time where it can being put to good use.
I grew angry with it but he don't understand.
I once complained to a friend about it and she wanna talk to him but I let it go but it kept coming back.
And I disliked some people who gave illogical stuffs that caused him to think it is true.
I dislike the current situation.
If I have the authority. I will boycott that game.
Remembering the LORD @ 8:21 AM
Unhappy Day
How can I be truly happy and satisfied?
I wish there is a reset button and everything will be fine.
I wish I am a different person living a different life.
I wish...
Remembering the LORD @ 11:50 PM
All I wanna said
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Is... some people just bring me headache.
Said something yet don't like people to mention their name.
Anyhow planned something, yet didn't confirm it.
I dislike situation like this. Don't come to me if you never ask things properly.
I will no longer entertain it.
For goodness sake, be details... be specific and ask people involved then ask people along.
As simple as that...
Remembering the LORD @ 12:10 AM
Sinful acts?
Well, I got a confess of stumbling across something I shouldn't see.
But what is it?
I won't share now but I am surely happy.
Sinful act of reading but... I am happy and awaiting for it to come. =)
God, You are wonderful.
False "sinfulness", real blessing. =)
Remembering the LORD @ 11:36 PM
2010, moving on into 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Ending off 2010 in not a wonderful mode, until Dear came into the picture to treat me to meals and shopping with me...
But overall, looking back, I found a job, ministry is growing...
But what I wanna do for 2011?
1. Spiritual Growth
I want to get back into momentum. I wanna grow, I wanna have God in every single things I do.
2. Career
My sup is not the best sup, and words she said is making people very tired of her, but nonetheless, I wanna do well at work and show her that, whatever she think is not true at all.
3. Ministry
Grow CG, multiply again. =)
4. Relationship
Hint to dearest, where is my bling? LOL And he replied, "ring pop"? =.=" Anyway, looking forward to more exciting memories with him, and also, we are gonna pray more, fast more and read the bible more.
Now... time to put something into actions!Labels: New Year Resolution
Remembering the LORD @ 9:45 AM
Moving on from here
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
The past one week, things has happened unexpectedly but it showed human's ugliness.
Situation doesn't happened over one man's fault. But people over spiritualise and self righteousness cause them to think that they are more spiritual than others.
Yes, at 1st I wanna to blame the couple as well. But with close friends supporting me, they said let it go and let God.
How many times we tried to take things into our own hands?
Many times...
But it's time, for God shall be the Judge.
Judge not and you shall not be judge.
I rather not judge than to be judge by God.
We should carry the fear of the Lord so as to live a life full of His love.
Have we been judging others?
No one is below anyone.
We all need leaders to advice us but moving on from here, we shouldn't think we are above the rest.
Time to do some changes to it.
Remembering the LORD @ 3:59 PM
Spring Cleaning
Friday, November 19, 2010
Spring cleaning of my old blog...
Was feeling emo when dear is away.
Goodness, he is only working till this timing... Well, since 1230pm... And I am missing him badly.
He couldn't really BBM me and truly, taking an off today make me miss him lots.
Thinking back, time really flies.
It has been nearly 10 months since we are together and remembering 2009, we were still hiding our feeling and trying to explore our friendship and soon, it will be a year since we got together.
Many ups and downs.
And life isn't as perfect as we hope to be, but soon...
We will reach our another chapter of the love story.
Yes, we are balloting for our 1st flat.
Awwwww, talking about it warm my heart.
Dear insisted trying for Senja Parc View.
Well, praying that we will get it!
Completion date: 3rd Quarter 2015
God, make it happened for us.
Try to ask dear when he will roughly pop the question and he kept his mouth super tight.
Yesterday at CK and DQ's wedding, Cliff walked by and talked to us about wedding planning.
Anytime, I won't forget Cliff. One of the BEST wedding coordinators I knew
And guess what, dear said to get 5 wedding coordinators.
I feel like saying, I am not a princess, 3 will do.
But thanks God for a dear who think beyond what I want.
Looking forward to see him and my food.
Dearie, love you to the max!Labels: Love
Remembering the LORD @ 12:29 AM
A servant on the OUTSIDE, a lover on the INSIDE
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Today, it has been such a long time since I blogged.
But what brought me to this again is a conversation with a dear friend.
We talked about serving, about ministry.
And I was reminded again in this.
Don't be a Martha in PLAIN SERVING but be a Mary in LOVE WITH THE PRESENCE OF GOD.
I was once going all out to serve, for a sake to be seem, to be recognised by people.
When I came to a point when serving became a burden, not a burden of the Lord but a burden that burned me out, I threw in the towel, not once, not twice but thrice.
And the last time, I looked into my heart, asking myself, what's wrong with me? And after searching for an answer, I found myself in the situation of Martha when she questioned the Lord in Luke 10:40:
But Martha was distracted with much serving, and she approached Him and said, “Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her to help me.”
But the Lord answered in Luke 10:41:
And Jesus answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things.
Sometimes, when we are burned out in serving, one question we got to ask ourselves is... are we worried and troubled about many things?
I tends to have the bad habit of worrying about things and people that I shouldn't be worrying about.
Sometimes, I tends to care too much about the opinion of others to a point where I became insecure.
But... JESUS set me free.
He give me someone who shows me the love of Jesus in a real way, and how I can learn to be a better person who move on not because of position but love.
My leader that God placed above me also taught me so.
Be a servant on the outside by serving the society and the people around you while being a lover on the inside, loving God whole-heartedly and fervently.
Live out the commandments, live out your lives.Labels: Revelation
Remembering the LORD @ 10:52 PM
Quite a while
It has been quite sometimes since I last blogged.Work has been busy. Learning new things everyday. But still, God is leading. Dear has been moving into what God has been calling him and I'm happy for him.
I am also moving into the unknown, knowing that one day God will bring me to my destination.
But 1st of all, I need to grow in Him.
I want to really get back that fire... And burn it stronger.
The fire of knowledge and theology. To equip people, to educate people and to grow disciples for Jesus.
And it all start with NOW.
Remembering the LORD @ 2:44 PM
After a long time
I have something in mind to post, but sometimes frustrating happened.
I wish I have all the answers but now the answer is in the hand of God.
My 1st post in 2 months, and all I want now...
Is to experience the living presence of God Himself.
Remembering the LORD @ 11:36 PM
